tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-60187922011-04-22T04:37:24.932+08:00my daily musings..chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comBlogger1261100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1162590082766195652006-11-04T05:40:00.000+08:002006-11-04T05:41:22.790+08:00

sorry guys. i will not be updating on this site no more. pls ask me if u wana have my pte site. i will only keep it as confidential... sms me.. luv ya!

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1145009029751781112006-04-14T18:03:00.000+08:002006-04-14T18:03:49.766+08:00

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1141295372214506272006-03-02T18:25:00.000+08:002006-03-02T19:22:34.943+08:00

The Sudden Departure Random Brutal Love Master (RBLMf)Sweet. Dear. Loving. At Gate 18. Final call. The Sudden Departure. You've been in a lot of serious relationships. More than a few have ended ugly. Uglily. Whatever. Our guess is that you're a really fantastic girl who doesn't really know what she wants, and you've broken a few hearts as a result. You fall for people easily, and you enjoy the

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1137950727147809792006-01-23T00:46:00.000+08:002006-01-23T01:35:43.040+08:00

Pokie has been complaining that i've not been updating for long and deemed that i'm on that mia act again.I've been feeling under the weather lately. Weather's been a killer, next to that great fluctuations in the stocks. 2006, blasted with weeks of heavy downpour, and the silly dooly ting been caught in the rain for uncountables. Now that the uncle sunny has returned, he kissed me hard on both

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1135192917086897932005-12-22T03:10:00.000+08:002005-12-22T03:21:57.103+08:00

All that blues invasion,nothings the way deserved..So fading as time slips,no more shall there be..What goes comes around,fairness ceased the sight..All was complex steps,the way life games..If you are phunking now,think twice..If you are not up for game,take your leave..Never gonna repeat one,there's never second..Play the way you deemed,don't get caught..What you see will that be,Dont assume

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1134983209928975622005-12-19T16:30:00.000+08:002005-12-19T17:06:49.983+08:00

Life's never fail to amuse me with all that extreme pop-up surprises and enigmas that follows. For one, it embarked me on a mundane ride with all that whins and routined tasks that never seemed to ceased. Then, suddenly, it brought me onto another roller-coaster ride with seems to elevate sky high, blurring my sight, emerge in confusion.. For once, I guess im acrophobia.On the other hand, good

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1134930554291055652005-12-19T02:20:00.000+08:002005-12-19T02:29:14.336+08:00

aloha! im back!ive been out practically every night ever since i touch foot home.. all that meeting ups and work have practically depleted all my energy ( i dint have ample of sleep overseas too).. i have officially declare myself as a wonder panda! The place is practically soso but i burnt my pocket too and have carried that habit when im back here. Im broke! On the other hand, im enjoying every

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1133979167645968632005-12-08T02:09:00.000+08:002005-12-08T02:12:47.656+08:00

Hello,Im going out of town as from today. Will be back next week.Away on a retail theraphy and soul escapade.Bye!!

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1133335757521688442005-11-30T15:16:00.000+08:002005-11-30T15:29:17.533+08:00

I'm pissed and angry both at a certain individual and myself. I guessed I made quite a bunder of myself when everything just fell apart. Geez. Anyway, was rather disappointed with what that had happened during the conversation. It happened like a 234258 times which I had greatly lost count of that already, but this is the first where Im addressing to it cos he refused to halt the conversation.

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1133254199607094042005-11-29T16:34:00.000+08:002005-11-29T16:50:00.286+08:00

My head's spinning a 34235235235 millions orbits every second. It must have due the lack of sleep I have had for the past nights, and it definitely caused a great deal of discomfort and hiatus. I almost fell asleep the minute i stepped into the office and am still feeling that right now.However, today's kinda productive. I managed to get my stuffs done and also the entire skin changed. The 10th

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1132823498420030232005-11-24T17:03:00.000+08:002005-11-24T17:11:38.430+08:00

this is what the weather could do to one,and temperature adds on both external and internal. im such a dead kitten now, still struggling to stay awake with the booze in my blood. laters..

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1131300135754256312005-11-07T01:59:00.000+08:002005-11-07T02:02:15.766+08:00

sorry peeps,im taking time off my blog..its getting all too solemn..im not doing all well,im not happy in any ways..im so that sinking deeper into depression..im on pills yet again to get to sleep each night..i loathe that so much,i need a breather,and that getaway..bless my life and gimme strength to move on..i love you all..ting*

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1130741274402291772005-10-31T14:41:00.000+08:002005-10-31T14:47:54.403+08:00

to hell with all of you!dont step on my tail twice!and im warning you!wat goes around,will come around!may karma fall on you!bi*ches & bas*ards!!f*rk u all!and all of u burn in hell!!-sorry; im getting all valgur and worked up.. pardon me for if you were the one to start a day and work with tears streaming and eyes swelling like a goldfish's.. u will greatly understand why im ranting this way-yes

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1130740853750957312005-10-30T02:39:00.000+08:002005-10-31T14:40:53.763+08:00

Chantel Singer : FrenchYou are fairminded, wise and peaceloving and are always willing to help others. Your mental capabilities and creativity are well marked with wonderful and original ideas which you need to bring to tangible fruition. Perceptive and understanding of others your positive approach to life and influential nature means that you have leadership qualities. There is great potential

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1130397422502247012005-10-27T14:21:00.000+08:002005-10-27T15:17:02.566+08:00

im so addicted to books and readings;managed to finished 1 and 1/2 books in 2 days,in view of being quite a record for that usually take a 3-4 for each?guess; im really bored rigid and derived of recreation and REST..it disgust me having to wake at the most absurd hours of darkness,in a row robbing all that well-deserved beauty sleep after extensive working hours.i guess its time to make a trip

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1130343019612948622005-10-26T23:41:00.000+08:002005-10-27T00:10:19.670+08:00

officially marked* a year; well that only applies to a special someone (we both remembers* i hope).. in a batter of my lid; i seemed that i have sleep for a whole grief of a year (which in actual fact, i didnt).. so much had seemed to happen within a short span of a year; getting all the ins' and outs', all that cracks of laughters, silly giggles and soft cuddling all slammed back like yesterday.

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1130250328457171612005-10-25T22:03:00.000+08:002005-10-25T22:25:28.493+08:00

health's been hanging mid since i woke from my sleep during the wee times for upteem counts over the last few nights despite how tired and exhausted my body measures.. in additions, to all the late nights (in which, i managed to sing myself to sleep with all that soft melodies from my player only after 2am?) and having to wake at 730 daily.. christ, if u do read this: pls take that insomnia away

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1130011159028219002005-10-23T03:53:00.000+08:002005-10-23T04:05:45.726+08:00

there are a millions thoughts rambling my mind each day,was lost whilest trying to address to even one of them..am really all exhausted and drained both physical and emo,wonder how much longer could i hold out exhaling each breath..pls, take everything away, turn back time, bring him back..

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1129796970788776172005-10-20T16:24:00.000+08:002005-10-20T16:40:36.176+08:00

found no motivation to work for the entire week..and kept dozing off whilest at work..was at momo last night with all my girls..it was definitely babelicious.."mei nus always single"heh! anyways, with a 2 hour sleep,half a day had past, im counting down toFRIDAY NIGHT!

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1129541196255121352005-10-17T17:24:00.000+08:002005-10-17T17:26:36.263+08:00

firstly, thank you for letting me know how much a loser you are and made a right choice by not befriending you no more. you had played your little game of distortion of facts and speaking untrue to people around you, only to let them apprehend how much of a b*stard you are. your morality and poise are corrupted and ain’t distant compared to a freaking rat in the drain. you can live in that

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1129319593175130762005-10-15T03:43:00.000+08:002005-10-15T03:57:49.266+08:00

too many to address;too much thoughts lingering;i wana scream!i need a listening ear;yet none could be disclose;i wana hide!and i need so muchbut i shall not ask..save me!

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1129139907871050462005-10-13T01:52:00.000+08:002005-10-13T01:58:27.876+08:00

all drained both physical and emotional;makes me feel so small and its suffocating;all that rough patches slapping hard right now;i cant remain all nonchalant and be an escapist;that hurts bad;i swear*tired from all that layers of masks;if only tears could bring me where that desires;i will cry a river;i promise*

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1128806421247972672005-10-09T05:14:00.000+08:002005-10-09T05:20:21.253+08:00

am kinda tipsy 2nite. drink frm a place to another.. wasnt feeling really great and a buddy of mine had to ask me to momo to "save" him..things wasnt gng well 2nite.. when i spotted someone whom i wished to ignore and shun frm earlier the evening and later spotting him at the place i went. i saw a great couple of person i won't want to meet. but i took a great number of pics which i wuld update

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1128649571451116082005-10-07T09:20:00.000+08:002005-10-07T09:57:17.730+08:00

doddles..am blogging in the office now and my eyes are seriously shutting on me at any moment..am struggling to keep them wide open as i strained my eyes to type this post with this font colour against a white background.. -rolls- was really surprised that i managed to drag myself outta bed this morning and get that lazy ass of mine to work in time... without taking a taxi! haha~ and to "

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1128356388957387892005-10-04T00:15:00.000+08:002005-10-07T09:57:52.993+08:00

back with two days of medical leave..popping a some good seven pills every six hourly..in addition to 10ml of cough mixture..all that strong medication,was causing all that drowsiness..inflicting gastric & pains physically..gawd.. bring all that pain away..i miss him still..

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1128050131426991252005-09-30T11:06:00.000+08:002005-09-30T11:15:31.433+08:00

finally, my blogger screen is back to normal..ive been wanting to blog and rant for like ages,however, stupid blogger died and disabled me..felt so much handicapped with my laptop these days,with all that turtle-paced speed in accessing to all applications..this is so driving me crazy.. sending me all do-do all the way..anyway, today is a darn cursed day.. counting down since midnight..i couldn't

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1126461520009619212005-09-12T01:49:00.000+08:002005-09-12T01:58:40.016+08:00

am bored..People see you as A Popular Princess. You arepopular and you flaunt it! Arrogance is youmiddle name! You are a mean girl! you have tolighten up. No one will care what you did inhigh school in the real world! What Do People Truly See You As? (lots of outcomes and stunning pictures)Happiness makes your heartbeat. Being genuinelyhappy is such a rare quality in people today.So enjoy your

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1125687896686832932005-09-03T02:58:00.000+08:002005-09-03T03:04:56.690+08:00

was rendering rather melancholic today..exams are closing up and am getting rather suffocated..cant help putting failure next to my "calculus"..am getting outta hand..been getting all that outbreaks and dull complexion lately,puffiness building under that signature "little" eyes..gorging on all that junk lately, an additions to BMI too...geez.. it's all turning me off!someone save me from all

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1122673429485563592005-07-30T04:42:00.000+08:002005-07-30T05:43:49.536+08:00

the moment of truth:for him who reads this not,am kinda drained both physically and emotionally,sinking deep into thoughts depicting that moves of yours..yes, am lost in the midst while searching for that answers,leaving the poor soul confused, irritable yet curious..what are your intentions?what with all the attempts?what makes you take this step?what was it that you want from me?for, you not

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1122630980732037812005-07-29T17:54:00.000+08:002005-07-29T17:56:20.736+08:00

for peeps who are pondering why do i use such a topic..you're in for a hilarious posting by missy chantel..now im officially known as miss accident prone queen.had 5 dumbest incidents within a week..1st: went to school, stumbled hastily into the class,knocked myself against the tables and chairs..forming bumps around my waist and leg... no more mid-drifts...2nd: was discussing with classmates

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1122399841363992782005-07-27T01:42:00.000+08:002005-07-27T01:44:01.370+08:00

i saw her taking flight,so high, i lost that sight..leaving behind that ugliness,settling upon a renewal..where is that him she's been waiting,struggling to cease that solitary..winter has passed, summer slipped,still it stands far beyond her circumference..

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1122314220716497922005-07-26T00:47:00.000+08:002005-07-26T01:57:00.766+08:00

surprised that im posting?yes, helluva lucky you.cos' im so dedicating this post specially for you. and soon more to come..first and foremost, thanks for getting me involve in that little game of struggle.you've been playing the two-headed well.. this i should applaud. you played it all well, from distorting all that facts, slamming back on me, triggering misconceptions and broken friendships

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1118767804300435522005-06-15T00:41:00.000+08:002005-07-26T01:58:01.183+08:00

Please Do Not STOP and EXCLAIM"Why do you look so god darn PALE"Answer:SICK and STRESSED

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1116513647284812342005-05-19T22:36:00.000+08:002005-05-19T22:42:19.780+08:00

"Happiness is knowing that somewhere out there, stands someone who truly cares for you, someone who picks you up when you fall, someone who understands and knows you, who holds you when you cry and embrace you when you smile; happiness appears when you know that person is just for YOU." i've finally moved outta that deception and hide..

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1116172267714176982005-05-15T23:33:00.000+08:002005-05-15T23:51:34.150+08:00

a renewal,decided to take another step out,doing what my heart tells me..pondering whether the decision was right,i could not care less for this time..am giving that one last try,proposed a benchmark in me..am not gonna be hanging on for the impossible,will let time heal and tell everything..::if u do see::before,if shouldn't have done things,which i don't wish to see from you.if i haven't been

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1115746944216174022005-05-11T01:27:00.000+08:002005-05-11T01:44:24.923+08:00

how do i feel?what's keeping inside?as time slips away daily,my heart never cease missing you.flashbacks kept lingering inside me,yes, i do miss you so.as i wish upon seeing you at times,god had granted that request.my heart skipped a beat upon your touch,i was delighted yet despondent.really all tired from putting on masks,which belongs to other faces.it's hard to express my thoughts,for fear of

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1115655418012701832005-05-10T00:12:00.000+08:002005-05-10T00:18:24.523+08:00

I LOST MY DIAMOND RING!!just f*cking kill me;darn f*cking pissed;im a god darn stupid girl;f*cking lost everything..

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1115505272422613922005-05-08T06:30:00.000+08:002005-05-08T06:37:52.686+08:00

she was forced to admit his presence,stuck in the midst of words,struggled through the thoughts,fond memories kept flashing..it was nonethless a painful sight,she fought the urge of hugging,resisting the temptation of kissing,he was no longer her baby..the best present was.. her departure..

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1115227310728901672005-05-05T01:11:00.000+08:002005-05-05T01:21:50.766+08:00

Your Love Style is ErosFor you, love is all about the passion!And chances are, you're currently in love.You have a strong physical response to love...And you are great at committing(As long as the person makes your toes curl!)------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1115144426065944162005-05-04T02:19:00.000+08:002005-05-04T02:20:26.066+08:00

she neither sad..she neither happy..she's still confused..searching for happiness.. a whole new beginning..

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1115048275325881832005-05-03T12:03:00.000+08:002005-05-02T23:47:50.366+08:00

我只想要往前飞　能飞多远也无所谓 我讨厌在这里排回　我厌倦我流眼泪 只管闭上眼往前追　若错过太多就有所谓 我害怕了后悔　那种遗憾的滋味放开那些事与愿违　放开那些是是非非 转过身　已走远　请留住我的美忘掉那些曾经依偎　忘掉那些温柔相随 回过头　已终结　只能给自己一个　你曾经给的安慰放开那些事与愿违　放开那些是是非非 转过身　已走远　请留住我的美忘掉那些曾经依偎　忘掉那些温柔相随 回过头　已终结　只能给自己一个我只想要往前飞　飞多远也无所谓 我害怕了后悔　那种遗憾的滋味　往前飞"往前飞"

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1114968919588842112005-05-02T01:32:00.000+08:002005-05-02T01:35:19.590+08:00

she's drained from all that energy..she's all emotional, physical, mentally exhausted..she's detouring from all that memories and melancholy..and she needs to stay healthy and gleeful for the days...

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1114968748824653232005-05-02T01:27:00.000+08:002005-05-02T01:32:28.826+08:00

may he grow with wisdom each day,may he stay in the pink of health everyday,i wish that he is blessed with external happiness..thanks for the sweetness, and memories he has given her.

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1114881082935725352005-05-01T01:00:00.000+08:002005-05-01T20:19:05.666+08:00

strolling across the bustling streets,seeking for directions to seek..struggled to keep thoughts from running,memories flashed with every step taken..detouring from urban relationships,settling where unfamiliarity lives..sight where purity surfaces in one,cleansed with beads of happiness..

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1114880072794817772005-04-30T14:49:00.000+08:002005-05-01T00:59:05.693+08:00

"Throw It Away"fly by frankie thinks he's superman like a child at the wheel of a rocket he comes round here with a license to love but i don't know where he got iti trusted you offered everything but i'm not sure you deserve it you tell me that i'm lucky but i feel like giving up 'cause a heart like mine's wasted on you if you don't know what you've got you throw it away throw it away all the

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1114707466792221342005-04-29T00:16:00.000+08:002005-04-29T02:01:11.296+08:00

sorry,she did tried her best,she did all that with all her heart..it still didn't work out,it still hurt them the same once again..she couldn't ask for much,nor can she offer him more..the path taken was the best she can give,hoping that she will see him smile once again..perhaps we committed too adruptly,perhaps we love each other too deeply..

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1114626181766766502005-04-28T02:10:00.000+08:002005-04-29T02:01:38.246+08:00

the girl,i saw her standing in front of the mirror,a sight i couldn't depict as i tried..she was smiling yet she wasnt..she saw and admitted to the truth finally,not deceiving herself no more then before..it was nonetheless some path hard to endure,however that marks another learning journey..both of them had different perceptions towards ideas,so different that could never be met i perceive..she

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1114539637984350482005-04-27T02:20:00.000+08:002005-04-29T02:03:16.706+08:00

i looked upon the tears in her,and thought otherwise from perceived..she was strong as i defined,something i couldn't deny from that heart..all that was needed was more time,to get through all that mess created..it was never meant to be since then,something i chose to let go now and thereafter..

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1114195633743195572005-04-23T02:42:00.000+08:002005-04-29T02:04:46.403+08:00

for that guy..someone i wana reach out too,for now till as i see...someone i wana understand and feel,for that i don't see at all...do you feel the same as i feel?do not understand all that i have done?what can i still ask from you at all?what can i still search deep inside you?i do love you as always,something i couldnt deny if i wanted..i just wanted to feel you,something beyond my

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1113986439636325622005-04-20T16:34:00.000+08:002005-04-29T02:07:23.786+08:00

exhausted; physically; mentally; emotionally;never probe;don't ask!!!i'll speak if i desire..

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1113926780659677242005-04-19T23:48:00.000+08:002005-04-29T02:07:44.320+08:00

imagination runs,feelings distorted..i see that pretty face,appearing with each blink..you open that door,and left it hanging..i've fallen deep,till i couldn't stand..the touch have never been colder,have you not realise at all?living in all but isolation and deception,pending for that return again..solely dedicated to my dear friend..

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1113838115021747292005-04-18T23:11:00.000+08:002005-04-29T02:08:07.066+08:00

I can't seem to find another hide.a place I named, sole deception.I kept getting all that sleepless.yearning for an additional.I couldn't find the words,lost in the midst while searching..a b and c can't depict that feelings,something overshadowed by disillusionment..for any who understands,take that twinge away..

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1113840105784395302005-04-17T23:31:00.000+08:002005-04-20T00:16:58.580+08:00

isolation stirs imagination..was it but all reciprocated if any?reaching out have never been further,was she just another auxiliary for leisure?her digits were only second to his dail,was she losing grip as she breathes?divergence taking its show,was it all but meant to be?being ain't getting much enchancements,

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1113326727103080652005-04-13T01:23:00.000+08:002005-04-13T01:26:28.220+08:00

boredom's invading her..silence's surrounding her..rescue the cat!!

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1112299308839180412005-04-01T04:00:00.000+08:002005-04-01T04:01:48.840+08:00

when everything falls in place,im still asking for what you want?

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1112258761625745102005-03-31T16:41:00.000+08:002005-03-31T16:51:13.623+08:00

for him,everything seems back to dating,everything seems to fall in right places..whenever we exchange glances,i see that sweetness in your eyes,i see that sorrow in my reflection..the way you fill my mind,leaving me all weak and helpless..i called it a blessing,for a call from or seeing you,sending adrenaline rush through me..how i wish to hold you so tightly,accompanying me through my days..how

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1112118311758383002005-03-30T01:18:00.000+08:002005-03-30T01:45:11.766+08:00

cleared,once you were in my dreams, before i know there wasnt me..i closed my eyes to see you smile,woke up each day i finding it worthwhile..asking,yes i still do care for you..yes i still do love you..yes im still pending..am adapting to singlehood,struggling but made it through..am not all teary and melancholy,taking steps into a whole new realm..you're not here,for i wish you happiness..i'm

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1111935968803079852005-03-27T22:49:00.001+08:002005-03-27T23:08:13.053+08:00

listening,it was that painful process,we both have to go through..i had a break from urban,merely physical i had to admit..i loathe the sound of loneliness,cant just defer it away from reality..each breath i took before rest,i saw the words u spill on me..i saw the broken path we took..i felt the pain in my heart..if u could just take you off my mind,if u could just take that sorrow off me,if u

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1111934935693898182005-03-27T22:09:00.000+08:002005-03-27T22:48:55.693+08:00

im back..was a nice getaway,no cellphones, no communication devices..all spent was on an island,with different faces for different purposes..time was divided between diving and napping,all was worthwhile though..saw so much that i had never imagined,swimming with marine lives,scanning thru every bit of its habitat...ask for more??ring me..

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1111660283015214612005-03-24T18:21:00.000+08:002005-03-24T18:31:23.020+08:00

wronged,i didnt know that departure is for long,i didnt know how i could fight back tears..once i longed to call you my baby again,now i struggled to replace the names..then as i reach out to you no more,i lost the sense of direction,just like a lost sheep searching for shelter..i couldnt believe we closed the book,a story we call it his and hers..i felt the pain so deep in me,pending for his

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1111602912195240772005-03-24T02:31:00.000+08:002005-03-24T02:35:26.553+08:00

cleaned,we broke cleaned,nothing said and done could salvage..regret was there..tears filled the brims of my sight..none could have happened,if i do understand a little earlier..negligance and ignorance,greatest enemy for then...crestfallen as i feel,i needa breather...i needa flyaway...i still do love u

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1107278347208740002005-02-02T01:15:00.000+08:002005-02-02T01:35:37.866+08:00

shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping.. guilty paragon what's better? freaky; bustling; incoherent; perspiring; unculturedcrowds spotted crime scene: chinatown..

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1107183897804303342005-01-31T22:48:00.000+08:002005-01-31T23:04:57.803+08:00

I am, breathing yet suffocatedrelaxed yet uncontentedbaffled yet searchinghome yet outdoorspsychotic yet sanedriven yet aimlessworking yet boredloving yet crossed

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1107115815442382692005-01-31T04:06:00.000+08:002005-01-31T04:10:15.443+08:00

a million thoughts running thru my mind,still have not found answers to questions,am losing my wisdom; am losing my sanity;y am i feeling the way i do,am i suppose not to feel so,its packed,too packed..

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1100414296166545142004-11-10T23:59:00.000+08:002005-01-31T04:13:59.206+08:00

routine three, shenzhem customs da mei sha, xiao mei sha sovient military ship and arms yum cha and seafood

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1100414118221190932004-11-09T23:59:00.000+08:002005-01-31T04:14:18.246+08:00

routine two, travel buses, trains kowloon shopping ladies market, goldfish market flower market, fa yuen street jordon, tsim sha tsui granville street.. dusty, 2%, double park, www.izzue.com.... and on..

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1100413958847617512004-11-08T23:59:00.000+08:002005-01-31T04:16:50.326+08:00

routine one, departure, arrival. yuen long shopping yuen long feasting planned for thereafter..

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1097262329257256152004-10-09T03:00:00.000+08:002004-10-09T03:05:29.256+08:00

for u not understand, im afraid to express, words and meanings got distorted. im afraid to open up, for getting the wrong facts and the opposite. as mentioned, contenting with what im having right now. do you still not, seek the hidden message protrayed. many a times, i wanted to take a step further. however thinking, will directions turned out as desired. i did take it seriously, too much to

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1095615223124395312004-09-20T01:25:00.000+08:002004-09-20T01:33:43.123+08:00

I had enough,Its suffocating.I need a breather,Please, Set me free. Yesterday is history, Today is a gift, Tomorrow is a mystery.Live for the future and Learn from all that has passed.

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1095614644403290802004-09-19T05:34:00.000+08:002004-09-20T01:25:03.053+08:00

wild cat, dance beats echoed through the house, body swaying along with the movie. booze sipping down the deep throats, one sensational scene observed. through the wee hours, hands waving in the air. as disco lights spins rounds after rounds, butts shaking to the rythm of the night. alcohol acted and took over the souls, all but another touchy scene observed. turning the minds on with exotic

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1095475228350604672004-09-18T10:38:00.000+08:002004-09-18T10:40:28.350+08:00

roars, You are Purple Tiger, who is always cheerful and active. You are well-liked by every one. You give an impression of a girl with pure heart. You are kind and generous to everyone around you. You are rather optimistic, but may experience unsettlement by physical effect. You are good at taking care of the others and can be friend with anybody. Your relationship tends to be associating

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1095436887100890702004-09-17T23:54:00.000+08:002004-09-18T00:05:35.060+08:00

choice, take sometimes to consider, loving 1. someone who loves you, yet u don't 2. someone whom u love, yet he/her don't 3. someone whose character and lifestyle clashes with u 4. someone who is possessive, hope u to be by his/her side 24/7 5. someone who wants to change u to who he/her desires 6. someone who wants u to fit into his/her lifestyle 7. someone who doesn't trust u at all 8.

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1095337844283699802004-09-16T20:30:00.000+08:002004-09-16T20:33:40.096+08:00

Good Grief, I Sleep a Whole 15 HoursSilly Dokie, Saw and Took Sleeping Pills for Flu Pills I'm Still That Indifferent.

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1095338816105641962004-09-15T14:46:00.000+08:002004-09-16T20:49:43.986+08:00

"I wanna see, I wanna see beyond the horizon""Felt so Lethargic"

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1095175518371876032004-09-14T23:17:00.000+08:002004-09-14T23:34:39.443+08:00

searching, i'm sorry, for hiding in my shell. i'm sorry, for portraying the other side. it hurts to put on masks, it hurts even more to deceive its hard to depict all that been through, its harder to break down and drown everything. i have lost and deserted myself, when can the light of reality shine?

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1095175990312530652004-09-13T22:30:00.000+08:002004-09-14T23:33:10.313+08:00

black.and.blue You with the sad eyes Don't be discouraged Oh I realize It's hard to take courage In a world full of people You can lose sight of it all And the darkness, inside you Can make you feel so small

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1095010578971229352004-09-12T11:24:00.000+08:002004-09-13T01:37:47.750+08:00

stabbed, flings are healthybooze is an appetizer for sexsex is an element for pleasure and lifecommitments are curses reserved for marriage

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1095009752131300132004-09-11T01:21:00.000+08:002004-09-13T01:22:32.133+08:00

I Needa Breather!! Set Me Free!!

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1094887059328088482004-09-10T22:55:00.000+08:002004-09-11T15:17:39.330+08:00

defined, C apricious Cat H uggalicios Honey A rdour Activist N arcissistic Ninny T icklish Toff E xquisite Exterior L ethal Label just bored.

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1094885657268598582004-09-09T14:51:00.000+08:002004-09-11T14:54:17.270+08:00

sunkissed, as e serenity surrounds, a smell of freedom and relaxation. glancing over the far horizon, a place calling my paradise. i don't wana leave!!

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1094580965452351622004-09-08T02:10:00.000+08:002004-09-08T02:16:05.453+08:00

needa, Getaway to a sunny isle,somewhere where feets can soak in pearly sand.Away from the bustling city,where crystal bluey water rinshes your troubles away.. Yeah! I'm realizing it. And it's tomorrow.. till thursday peeps..*p.s. how nerve wrecking can it gets, when its all dampened by a silly doddy mugging and typo session for a thousand(s) words reporty. hate the psychomaniac.

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1094481495836467422004-09-06T22:23:00.000+08:002004-09-06T22:50:00.260+08:00

A Swinging Sexy Naughty Bitchy Bachelorette..Any Takers? Please dial : 1-900 Luv Ting, to apply for a place. p.s. only bachelors n bachelorettes need apply, if not, pls kindly rid your partners before application.

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1094484756173840472004-09-05T20:27:00.000+08:002004-09-06T23:36:21.616+08:00

cloudy, the skies overcast, feelings remain solemn. the rivers flooded by tears, a sight too dreadful for words. i saw that look in her eyes, a sense of melancholy. i searched into her heart and feel, all but emptiness remained. as seconds slipped away silently, nothing but confusion rambled through the mind. i asked her what was the missing element, received none but yet another minute of

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1094248816302413792004-09-04T05:58:00.000+08:002004-09-04T06:00:16.303+08:00

kudos, my salute to sleep deprived mammals..a bow to yet another immunity breakdown,a 300 times per year.

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1094136712214118402004-09-02T22:50:00.000+08:002004-09-02T22:51:52.213+08:00

I am a Feline mammal, I am a Feline mammal, having thick soft fur, I am a, Feline mammal having thick soft fur yet unable to roar, But I am elegant,I am elegantly fashionable, swish with a touch of class and style, I am a term for a youth, just like a spiteful woman gossip, I am Posh Cat. got this from a mate.. really appreciated this. thanks meng.

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1091597092457659062004-08-04T13:13:00.000+08:002004-08-04T13:33:15.143+08:00

seeking, i see your face, taking each step closer. i see your eyes, glowing in the darkness. i feel your lips, so luscious and soft. i feel your hands, so warm and tight. as i put my arms around you, i feel your heart beating. was it beating for me? or does it belongs elsewhere? i tried searching for the heart, was it still there, i pray? i went screening through your thoughts, have it fade

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1091597279589897252004-08-03T02:49:00.000+08:002004-08-04T13:30:34.120+08:00

you can deceive the entire world.but you can never deceive your heart.

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1091356885650943142004-08-02T18:17:00.000+08:002004-08-04T13:30:12.670+08:00

"Everytime" by Britney Spears Notice me Take my hand Why are we Strangers when Our love is strong Why carry on without me? Everytime I try to fly I fall without my wings I feel so small I guess I need you baby And everytime I see you in my dreams I see your face, it's haunting me I guess I need you baby I make believe That you are here It's the only way I see clear What have I done You seem to

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1091304632062272842004-08-01T03:30:00.000+08:002004-08-01T05:26:17.490+08:00

a crush, i wanna hold u in arms, so close and never to release. i wanna kiss your soft lips, to concede my love for you. as your soft touch caresses my hand, perplexity swallows my soul. a part urges me to hold u tight, however, i chose the reverse. tears don't speak, actions don't show, nothing depicts how i perceive. it aches me to withdraw, too many a times before. i wanted a fly away, to

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1091273700989065842004-07-31T19:35:00.000+08:002004-08-04T13:31:20.070+08:00

i love them. my sweeties, my dearies, my life..

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1091176153587520452004-07-30T16:10:00.000+08:002004-07-31T19:32:59.690+08:00

marked e end of term I,pitching in mid-sem tests.

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1090091659622535792004-07-18T03:14:00.000+08:002004-08-01T04:14:10.556+08:00

i needa.. don't wanna know what's going on, never wanna get it all going on. all that's needed is just another breath, never that's ever enough for her. taken too much in her stride, seeking solitude should she be? driven to the brim she thought, searching for the right choice.. it's all that's turning it's direction.. running away.. seeking shelter..

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1081179859087166552004-04-05T23:44:00.000+08:002004-04-05T23:48:02.856+08:00

there, system's failing with each tick, tears are held with each blink. never saluting to the darkness, on-going perserverence is fought. i might not be very strong physically, but mentally, subsist one can never expect.

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1080544658896174332004-03-29T15:17:00.000+08:002004-03-29T15:21:12.950+08:00

a lil address, mentally, physically, emotionally :stressed :exhausted :melancholy getting pretty vulnerable over days. projects, works and (unaddressed) are brought to the brim on my health. it's helluva taxing - i had to admit. burning midnights and lack of rest been revolving around for the past weeks. i'm failing..

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1078039204692903212004-02-29T15:20:00.000+08:002004-03-01T23:07:26.890+08:00

system incorporated, i need a breather, more than what i could ask. i need a fly away, more than what u could ask.. pardon my absence, gone.

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1075391864980989252004-01-30T00:57:00.000+08:002004-01-30T00:15:31.483+08:00

You Should Be With a Water Sign! Your best match is a Cancer, Scorpio, or Pisces Why? You crave intimacy and connection in your relationship And while most guys can't open up enough for you, a Water Sign can Not that you're whole relationship will be soul gazing A Water Sign matches your goofy sense of humor - and desire to help others. What Sign Should You Date? You are a Romantic Date Your

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1075392936974780762004-01-30T00:15:00.000+08:002004-01-30T00:34:06.326+08:00

You are a Romantic Date Your dating philosophy? "Date to fall in love" You prefer your dates to lead you down a romantic path If there's no soulmate connection, you're just wasting your time Guys to look for: Guys serious about love, who say they're ready for marriage Search for guys looking to "settle down" or "meet my match" Because if a guy's just playing the field, he won't give yout the

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1075391381065592662004-01-29T23:49:00.000+08:002004-01-29T23:53:17.170+08:00

exhausted, tired of putting on masks everyday, everywhere, everytime..

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1075229388471696442004-01-28T02:49:00.000+08:002004-01-29T23:53:09.576+08:00

here i am, standing at the cross roads once again. lost all the directions, immuned. im sinking, yes, im drowning too. falling into the pit of desolation yet again. i never wanna feel the way i am NOW, i hate this. i REALLY do.

chantelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15858146922989468161noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6018792.post-1075228809527126442004-01-27T02:35:00.000+08:002004-01-28T02:42:18.686+08:00

close to, was never the girl you see, have u ever perceive that? all i ask was a little more understanding, have that ever cross your mind? was feeling the chill down in me, will you ever offer the warmth again? all i know was but a silly mistake, will you not tell the same to me?

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